Monday, July 18, 2011

Oh and I forgot...

I have been working on this project for a while and I'm pretty excited about it! I thought I'd post it for you guys to look at, just so I can feel good about myself. It is my senior writing portfolio.

Here is the link:

http://kathrynkeller.weebly.com/

Bon Iver

This entire post is dedicated to the genius of one of my favorite musicians of all time: Bon Iver! I really just have to rave about him for a second or two and my blog seems to be the perfect medium. Gosh, he's just too beautiful for me to handle sometimes. If you haven't heard his music, I feel terribly for you (Jonathan Monson..eh hmmm :). I finally got his new album from my dear brother who burned it for me. I have been telling myself I'm too poor to buy it, but I finally have it in my hands. The whole album is so other-worldly and fantastic. Anyway, here are a few links to a few songs on it, just in case you haven't heard them/ him.

  • "Calgary": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KbJy1zeoDn4
  • "Holocene": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3ePlc3Gi_8
  • "Hinnom, TX": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kbr6Ui5VGRE
I'm just a wee bit obsessed with him at the moment, and for the last year...

Saturday, July 9, 2011

"We blew horns and that how it's been."

Today I discovered this journal entry which I wrote when I was 7:

"Today in church we had a sapstotoot (substitute) for are church. In are class yesterday we went jetscieing (jet skiing). It was fun. I liked it. A few days ago I staed (stayed) Home from school and we Got to have a mondo drink. And a Packe of rollerdlades And we got raesiens. and we got to have a boloniey sandwich I aet it all up. It was very very good."

Wow. What a brilliant child I was. All I cared about was the food. I guess some things never change. haha.

I have decided to share with you some hilarious snapshots from my life as captured through the medium of my parents and siblings in this beige journal which is a genuine treasure. I hope you're ready. But I really don't think you are.....

Oct. 14, 1990 (age 3-written by mom):
"I sure think you are cute. You want to know if stars have hands. I don't know. I kind of doubt."

Most of my entries begin with: "I like Jake. He is fun," or "Jake is cute."

Jan 3, 1993 (age 6):
"I like school. I don't like Amanda messing with my stuff." :)

July 4, 1993:
"Marnie did my hair this afternoon. I look VERY cute. It's poofy like Marnie's. Mom made donuts for us today. They were very good. Everyone said they loved my hair and that it was very CUTE! On vacation, we're gonna visit the John's. Janalee doesn't like me. She only likes Juliann. Last time she came she ignored me." hahahah

Sept. 11, 1994 (age 7):
"Today at confrence I decided not to tack paper because I thogth it wolde destraced me on thinking about Jesas Crist Because he is the Saviyor of the World and Hevenly Father is Jesases father I have a testemone that are savyor Jesas Crist does Live and he loves each of us And we are Jeses Crists children and he loves each of us that are in this world He made you and evrything that is arond you and I no The Church of Jesas Crist and latter day saints"

Jan. 7, 1996:

"I'll tell you about how I'v been. First we had Christmas and I got cool things one is a keyboard and a dress. Then like all things it ended. And then it was new years we had fun than to. when the clock got to 12 we blew horns and that how it's been. see ya."

Oh good times. I wish you could have seen me as I read some of these. I was almost tearing up with laughter. None of you probably enjoyed this as much as I did, but that's what blogs are for right? Forcing your private jokes on your loved ones. :)

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Texas or California?

Haha. Somehow I always knew it would come down to these two states. It's no surprise why. The sun shines in these places. I like sun. Sun is good. Me need sun. Me happy in sun. I don't know how many times I've sworn to myself that I would never live in a state where it snowed, but I'm actually quite serious about it. So, I've really been considering both of these places. If anyone has any job leads, I'm all ears. I was thinking particularly of Austin, for some reason, but who knows? I guess it all depends on where I can find a job of ANY kind. My main goal is to earn/ save as much money as possible in the next year before until I start grad school. Oh decisions decisions. I'm leaning toward Texas right now because it's WAY cheaper and I feel like I would save a bit more money there. Is it even possible to save money when you live in CA? You Californians better jump in here and share your thoughts. Anyway, with 26 days til graduation, I best get on this. I can't wait to graduate. I know I've said it before and you are probably terribly sick of hearing it, but I just don't care. WHOO HOO! I am so stoked.

Well, ta ta for now. Love you all!

Kathryn

Sunday, June 12, 2011

A few of my favorite things...


Hello from my mind:

So I just want to share with you a few things that are rocking my world right now. Just for fun, and because I can't think of anything extraordinary to say.

1. Elephants. I just saw that Water for Elephants movie a while ago and have become somewhat obsessed with elephants since then. They are the coolest animals God ever dreamed up.

2. Brandi Carlisle: "Before it Breaks." I just really really love this song right now. I've listened it to it ten times in the last hour. Soon it will probably not be my favorite song anymore. hahah. Here is a youtube link to the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPLST5EYsSE

3. The writing of John Stuart Mill: "I never, indeed, wavered in the conviction that happiness is the test of all rules of conduct, and the end of life. But I now thought that this end was only to be attained by not making it the direct end. Those only are happy (I thought) who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness; on the happiness of others, on the improvement of mankind, even on some art or pursuit, followed not as a means, but as itself an ideal end. Aiming thus at something else, they find happiness by the way."

4. The Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Jesus Christ. Guided by the inspiration of a friend and home teacher (and the Spirit of course), I decided to challenge myself to read the Book of Mormon in a month, which means i need to read 17 pages a day. It is a time sacrifice for sure, but already my life is changing under the power of that book (again!). It is a great gift I'm giving to my life right now.

5. Poetry. Poetry. Poetry. As usual. I'm still inhaling it and doing my best to write it. It remains my most violent, rapturous passion in life. :) Here is a poem I wrote recently after watching a video about the old film critic/ writer, Roger Ebert after his jaw removal:

Voice: To Roger Ebert

As I look at you I realize that voice is something altogether

separate from larynx, pharynx, palate, tongue, teeth, lips, sound.

Voice is being. Voice is thought. Voice is essence.

A cold, empty voice is now yours.

It was manufactured by some tech geniuses in Scotland.

I wonder what you did the first morning you woke up

after they removed your jaw,

and you tried to speak.

Did you cry?

Did you weep?

What happens to the mind when ability is swallowed by disability?

Of this I know something.

Is voice inherent?

Is voice cultivated?

Was I born with my voice?

Voice is the dearest treasure in the universe.

I never knew that until I heard yours.

6. Friends. I really have been blessed with the most remarkable friends in the wide world. A few of my dearest friends in the world came to visit me in Rexburg this weekend: a mission companion, mission friend, and convert I taught on my mission. It was a delightful weekend. Here are a few pics of us traversing my little town.


Well, that's about it for now I suppose since I still have to read my 17 pages of the Book of Mormon and I have class tomorrow morning. The time has already slipped so quickly away from me. Sorry for all of my avid readers for my long absence from the world of blogging. What can I say? I graduate from college in forty-two days? I'm a bit preoccupied. :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

Going to the Mattresses

Today I decided to start all over at life. I really have been going about it all wrong. It's time for a change. Which usually means I need to dye my hair...hmmm..better ask if my roommates are game. Oh man it's too late. Living in a town like Rexubrg, Idaho means that everything is closed at 11:46 p.m. Drat. Tomorrow will be my official new start then. I don't know why, but it never feels official until I dye my hair or do something drastic to signify my seriousness. Like in high school when I was such an insomniac and would get the urge to cut my hair at 3 a.m., and then when I walked downstairs the next day, Mom would look at me and laugh and say: "hmm, you cut your hair again, eh?" She never really knew what I would look like when I walked down the stairs in the morning. And I didn't either. When something needed to change in my life, my hair was usually the first victim.

Today my friend told me that I am negative and unhappy and in a bad place, and while I initially just wanted to punch her in the face and walk away laughing, after a few minutes of talking, I broke down and realized she is so so right. I have been waiting for happiness to come to me, but it never will. I must corner it and lock it in my closet. I feel pretty ready to be done with BYU-Idaho and the Rexburg scene lately (ok, since I returned from my mission--let's face it), and I sort of feel like I'm in a rut waiting to leave and move on. That is a frustrating feeling, so I just sort of gave up on happiness and meaning in life.

But today I decided to take it all back. I used to be so happy and carefree and content. I miss those days. Maybe they are gone forever with my childhood. Maybe life's brutality has taken them from me and I can't take them back. But I hope not. haha this sounds so upbeat. Luckily, only a few of you select people read this thing anyway.

I guess I'm just impatient. My mom always said I was too impatient with life. When I turned 16, I was already ready to be 17. I'm too eager and impatient for the next thing to come my way. It's one of my huge character flaws, I guess you could say. But, leaving BYU-Idaho will not make me happy. Moving to wherever I move will not make me happy (although I hope it's somewhere warm and sunny, which would in fact, make me happy). I have to find happiness in whatever I'm currently sitting in, which is BYU-Idaho. I will find the good in my circumstance and embrace it. So this is my fightsong.

Yeah..I feel better already. :)

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Birthday Photos!



As I mentioned, Ashley and Scotty made a big to-do about my birthday. They were so cute. I have the best family in the world, perhaps. :)